I woulda given you my heart,
gave up all i am.
but just look at you.
you just don't understand.
look at you.
you're so shallow,
but you don't care.
you're just so shallow,
shallow boy.
shallow boy.
i tried to make you happy.
did everything you wanted,
and you don't even care.
you shoved it in my face.
i gave you all my love,
chose you over my best friend,
and you spit in my face.
you don't even care!!
look at you sitting over there.
look at you.
you're such a shallow boy.
shallow boy,
shallow boy.
i hate you!
shallow boy!!
i gave you my everything.
nothing in return.
why did i even bother?
why should i even care?
Pray for the People by xxxderrangednoodlexx, literature
Literature
Pray for the People
Pray for the souls of the people,
The people who live each day like zombies,
Who go through life repeating the day,
On a schedule like machines,
Programmed to follow a pre-set course.
Pray for the souls of the people,
The people who live each day like zombies,
Never stopping,
Never changing,
Never disobeying,
Never thinking for themselves,
Never questioning the purpose of it all.
Pray for the souls of the people,
The people who live each day like zombies,
Who're allways hoping that someday thier life will change,
"It'll be better, I'll be on the top of the world!",
But it never changes for the people,
The people who live each
Whos there for you by xxxderrangednoodlexx, literature
Literature
Whos there for you
You try so hard to make everybody happy,
Searching for a way to feel whole.
Such satisfaction when everybody's happy.
Everybody but you...
You try so hard to solve everybody else's problems,
Just so you can ignore your own.
You smile and laugh to keep anyone from worrying,
But they should worry about you...
Everything is perfect.
Everywhere a smile.
Everyone is thankful to have someone like you there.
But at the end of the day,
When you really need it back,
Someone here to care,
No one seems to know quite how
To make all your inner demons fly away...
There's this urge that builds up
When my fingers trace the plastic line
Like a spirit inside this lead
Inside waiting, screaming.
Is it possible there is?
The spirits of our ancients, kept captive inside rock
Lead, graphite, sand, dust, dirt
Kept here, by pieces. To tell us.
Tell me.
I sit and stare as the dead leaves blow
Wondering where they came from, as if it's fall
Gutters cleaned?
Didn't you get the memo?
Spring is here, you silly leaves.
You're suppose to be gone.
But still it flutters at my feet,
As if begging for something.
Clinging to life? Clinging to me as I bend to pick it up
But it dissolves in my fingers, like
I sit and wonder
why I'm still alive
with all the shit I've done
I have to keep striving.
Striving for my life to end
seeing what will become
of my family and friends
I take the knife and press it to my wrist
and with all my courage I proceed to slit.
within the first few seconds
my blood fills my new wound
oh, God please let this be the final time.
Please don't spare my life this time
take it with all your strength and might.
I don't want to live anymore.
I'm just causing more pain to myself
and each time the hardest part is to try and gain.
Gain it all back so I can once again
bleed all over the floor.
Blood stains every
Current Residence: 3rd box to the left, with the duck sitting on it. Favourite genre of music: Why? are you going to give me some cd's? Favourite photographer: Wal*mart man Favourite style of art: the kind that i can see... Operating System: XP Wallpaper of choice: Iria Skin of choice: the kind that covers your muscles. Favourite cartoon character: happy noodle boy, Brigadier General Maes Hughs Personal Quote: It's like an ecstasy trip without all that pesky dying.
Favourite Visual Artist
JCV
Favourite Movies
Rose Red, silence of the lambs, flawless, the birdcage
As soon as I get a dual USB cable my scanner will be functioning and i might start putting some new stuff up for the first time in...ages I guess. Hopefully someone will favorite something OTHER than fan art for once..
Anyone good with photo shop and bored would be thanked most enthuistasticly if they would color something I've drawn. I am terrible with photoshop and I've always wanted to see what a few of my things would look like in 3D colored goodness. I will draw or write them something as a reward!
The boyfriend is gone, the move is off, my kitty died and i'm cold. My stepdad is trying to quit smoking so he's cranky, my mom won't ever wake me up when i need to get up, my brother is always on the phone and my friends stopped calling. Just thought i'd update everyone. :)